That’s right, for anybody who didn’t see this tweet this morning, I’ve officially hit my weightloss target! woohoo!!
Starting Weight: 10st 6.6lb
Previous Weight: 10st 1.4lb
Current Weight: 9st 13.8lb
Target Weight: 10st
This Week’s Weight Loss: 1.6lb
Total Weight Loss: 6.8lb
I’ve met and exceeded by target weightloss of 10 stone, but I’m not satisfied. The reason I’m not satisfied is that I’m still fat. I don’t mean that in an ‘oh my goddd, I’m sooooooooooooo fatttt’ way, I mean it in a ‘my body is still 25% fat’, according to my magical scales at least.
The problem is, I’ve lost this weight just by being slightly better with food, I still have carb fests (like last night) and I still eat too many sandwiches and crisps for lunch. The truth is, I was pretty crap with food before, I ate mindlessly and I didn’t pay attention to my body when I was full, so I have lost weight by being more mindful. The thing is, I haven’t exercised and so I haven’t got any fitter, my love handles still wobble and my thighs definitely still touch because although I’ve lost weight, my body hasn’t firmed up magically over night! It just goes to show that my body clearly wasn’t designed to carry the weight that I was carrying and that is probably one of the reasons why I get such a sore back – the other reason is that I’m weak and have nowhere near enough muscle because I don’t move enough. There are a host of problems associated with being like this and the term ‘skinny-fat’ has been coined. You can read about why it’s bad to be skinny fat on sheknows.com – don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely not skinny but my body is too much fat and not enough muscle.
I won’t be stopping with logging my food, I need to be reminded sometimes that I am eating mindlessly rather than because my body needs it, but I will enjoy my food, as I always have done.
I hope that I can keep up with eating properly and find out what size and shape my body is really meant to be and I hope that I come back at some point with a new journey of shaping up – but until I get my life (and house) in order, I doubt that is going to happen.
According to the NHS healthy weight calculator my BMI is 22.5, which is in the ‘normal’ range – but it isn’t even in the middle of the normal range. I know, I know, BMI means nothing really.
Part of me expected that I would somehow have more energy or generally feel better once I hit 10 stone, but in all fairness, I’m still mother to an insane toddler so I’m still knackered.
I may carry on with weightloss, but I haven’t decided yet. It’s something I have to figure out, having obsessive tendencies and having been “there” before with food issues, I don’t want to give myself a target that’s ridiculous and pushes me to the point of obsession. It’s something to discuss with R and my ‘fat club buddy’. Part of me thinks 9 and a half stone is achievable, but I’m not sure how I feel about it. This is all a mental battle as well as a physical one.