…well, I can’t say I was ever ‘thin’, but I wasn’t a hippo like I feel I am at the moment!
I have just unpacked my ‘pretty dresses’; since we moved in September they have been packed away in a suitcase as I didn’t really see the point in cluttering up the bedroom with them when it’s not like I can wear them. Today I decided the time has come to get them back out so we can get rid of the suitcase that they are in. When I looked at them my first thought was that jeez they look so small (in several ways!), and then it just made me wish I was the right size to fit into them. I also discovered the top that I wore to the Christmas Party last year, which is an oversized top, and would probably fit, but wouldn’t look quite as good as it did this time last year, and the size 10 wet look leggings I wore with it certainly wouldn’t fit! When I held those up I wondered if I would ever fit back in to them.
My hope is that just looking at the clothes that I’ve been really proud of and spent a fair amount of money on over time is enough to motivate me to get out and be active and to eat well and become the size I want to be. I know it will be difficult, but I really hope I can do it. I was getting to the stage where I was unhappy with my weight then I found out I was pregnant, so couldn’t really do anything about it! I guess it’s lucky that I’m about an hour’s walk away from my work, where I know there will always be someone to have a chat to, or a friendly place to go to if I just feel like getting out – that will definitely keep me active – I may just need to buy myself a new pair of shoes that are comfortable enough for a lot of walking.
Hopefully I can get back to being this: