Wow!!! I can’t believe I am now more than half way through my pregnancy (only by a week, but still!!) It doesn’t seem so long ago I first found out that I was pregnant, feeling confused and more than a little bit worried about the future! Now here I am, excited that I have a little monkey growing inside me!
Since my last blog post, I’ve been for my 20 week scan, well that was an experience and a half!! This time we were at St Albans rather than Hemel, the sonographer wasn’t nearly as friendly and nice as the first lady in Hemel at the 12 week scan, she had a student who she spoke to 99% of the time she said anything, and I saw the screen for about 30 seconds, if that! So it was nice to get a picture at the end because I didn’t really get a chance to see the baby at all!! She was really rough with the scan too, I actually felt like I was going to have a bruised tummy she pressed down so hard, it’s not like she even apologised, or tried to put less pressure on it. I had to grit my teeth and had tears in my eyes it hurt so much, I was so close to shouting at her and refusing to be seen by her, and even more tempted to say can’t the student do it!! So after about 10 minutes of this, she tells me that the baby is sat in an awkward place (yet again – had the same problem at the 12 week scan!), so I should go empty my bladder, drink a little more water and go for a walk for 10 minutes….about an hour later I was still waiting to be seen again, legs firmly crossed! Finally I was called back in, and she could see the bits she wasn’t able to last time, then told me I have a low lying placenta and I need another scan at 32 weeks, ok off you go bye….
Why you shouldn’t google the words in your maternity notes that you don’t understand…
So the sonographer tells me I have a low lying placenta, but doesn’t explain anything about it, like I’m supposed to know what that means…. So of course, curiosity gets the better of me, I google…. Also known as placenta praevia – I’ve heard of that somewhere before but not sure where/why. It’s where your placenta is covering your cervix, also known as blocking your baby’s exit route! So that doesn’t sound like it’s too good!! Carry on reading… if you go into natural labour you can lose so much blood you can be in a critical condition…. oh sh*t!! So that’s really not good!! Good news though, if it doesn’t move, they will give you an elected caesarian to avoid such things! Phewww…. Obviously not the option I would want, but being cut open by a surgeon is a bit better than bleeding so much your life is at risk!! Then I google the word ‘anterior’ because it says placenta anterior, then I find out that means the placenta is right at the front of the uterus, which is bad if you need to have a caesarian, and if you are cut in the wrong place you can lose so much blood you are in a critical condition! OH SH*TTTT” Is this karma for having such a problem free pregnancy up until now?!
Luckily, in the majority of the cases, the placenta moves up and doesn’t really pose any real problems, and an anterior placenta is only really an issue if you’ve had a caesarian before because it can attach itself to your previous scar. I really don’t think I’d have googled so much if she had told me what these things mean, but she didn’t explain anything. She showed me some graphs and pointed out that the cross was my baby and it was right in the middle of the normal section. I don’t really know what the graphs mean though! But my baby is normal…yayyy!!
So I have had a couple of bad dreams recently, two which really upset me, and both relate to pregnancy really I think….
The first one was that I just couldn’t breast feed, no matter how much I tried! No matter what I did, which position the baby was in, which position I was in, nothing worked. I know that not everyone can breast feed, I know it’s something I may have to face in a few months, though I hope that if breast feeding doesn’t go as planned, expressing will work fine. I’m not delirious though, I know these things don’t always go quite to plan. However, considering I am already producing milk, I know I shouldn’t have a supply problem at least!!
The second one was relationship related, we had been talking about day-lets at work – that’s when somebody wants a hotel room during the day rather than at night. There are only 2 types of people that use day-lets, the first being night workers who just want to sleep. The second being the type that aren’t going to be sleeping at all! That night I had a dream that the boyf was flicking through his phone while I was sat next to him, and he tried to hide a message, and the message said ‘I’m going to take her to the cinema then have sex with her’ and he wanted a day-let in a hotel….I woke up feeling short of breath and like I was going to cry!! I know he’d never do anything like that to me, but it just really hurt that my brain would do that to me! I know he still finds me attractive, and he is over the moon about the baby, I have no idea why I had such a bad dream!! It still upsets me thinking about it. The fact I am so tired from work, and have sciatica so can’t do a great deal means we aren’t quite as passionate as we usually might be, so maybe that’s what is upsetting me?! Who knows!! The brain does crazy things when pregnant!!
Trying to move house
We found a great little 2 bed end of terrace house, the agent seemed to really like us, even told us we could probably get away with offering £50 less than what is on the market for to rent, so we gave him all of our details. A few days later he calls to say the landlord won’t accept anyone with a guarantor, which is just ridiculous. Our combined earnings are more than a lot of people who are renting, and our guarantor is rock solid. So the hunt continues….but we are also open to staying where we are until we find something better and more permanent, it may only be one bedroomed, and on the second floor, but it’s a great location and there’s enough space – once everything is organised at least! We are getting there slowly!!
On a lighter note
Here’s our scan picture, we think the baby looks a bit like Curious George…
The face is really clear! It’s amazing what technology can do these days!