I visited the doctor yesterday, and they confirmed I have sciatica… the best part about this is that I don’t have SPD!! I do however feel useless. The doctor recommended rest, which I knew she would; I’ve been telling my workmates for ages that I didn’t want to go to the doctor because I knew they would tell me that I need to rest for my back to heal. She offered me a 2 week sick note, but I turned it down. One of our staff recently left, when I say left, I mean literally said ‘I quit’ and walked out of the building, so work has been a bit short staffed, and everyone has been very tense. We’ve also been really busy as we’ve got a huge group of people over here for the Olympics – no VIP athletes or anything like that – so every night we have a dinner, and because it’s huge for business they are pretty much at the forefront of our minds at all times. It’s great to have the same people in the hotel all the time, but it’s also a lot of pressure, it’s easy to fake a smile to someone you have never seen before and will never see again, but when people get to know you, they get to know your moods, facial expressions and body language.
So…work is really busy, I have to do everything at home because my partner isn’t here, so every grocery item I need, I have to go get. This isn’t usually so much of an issue as Sainsbury’s is down the road, but my back has been so bad recently that I could barely walk when I finished work. I also live on the 2nd floor in a building with no lift access, it was taking me so long to climb the stairs it was ridiculous, and by the time I got up them I was out of breath. It makes me feel so useless, like I can’t do anything, except sit and walk around occasionally at a slow pace. I think the worst part is that I feel like I’m so early on in pregnancy that life is just going to be difficult from now on, and is only going to get worse. I can only hope that everything else goes smoothly…I guess in some ways I’m lucky?