Over the past few days I’ve been feeling really ill…I feel sick when I wake up, then about 20 minutes after I’ve had my breakfast it comes back, and even when I eat at lunch time. It seems like it lasts for hours, then, when it’s late at night and I’m getting tired and ready for bed, I start to feel sick again. It’s getting to be really draining.
On top of the sick feeling, I’m constantly tired. It’s like I never get enough sleep. I wake up about 9 or 10 depending on when I went to bed, then by about 4pm-5pm I’m shattered again. What’s worse is that I’m mainly working Late shifts, so from 3pm-11pm. By the time I finish work, I’m so tired I can barely function, and I get home in a bad mood unable to do anything, but need to wind down before bed, meaning I rarely get to bed before 12 because my mind is still so active.
What’s worse is this pain in my back, just as I think it’s starting to get better, I get a huge pain, I still can’t lift things, and can’t bend properly. I picked up a washing basket earlier full of dried washing and it hurt… I’m finding it difficult at work. I’m in so much pain, but I can’t let people realise how much pain I’m in, because they tell me to take painkillers. One day I had to pretend to take a couple of painkillers because someone I work with was so on at me. It’s getting much harder to hide. There’s only 10 days until I have my scan though. I will be so relieved when that date arrives and I can just tell people why I feel so rough, and why I’m wearing a vest top under my shirt – so that I can undo the top of my trousers and not worry about my belly showing. My trousers get really tight, I feel so bloated so often, especially when I have just eaten.
10 days and counting…